Lovely boy that I love so very much has joined his big sister in the Type 1 world. I can tell you the moment he was first thirsty and needing to go to the bathroom too often. When I heard back from the hospital that his blood glucose numbers were indeed high I broke down. Amazingly I was surrounded by friends when I heard the news. When I pulled myself together enough I knew I wanted Gwyneth to be the first to know that Boone had Type 1. When I told her she lept into my arms and said, "I will take care of him! I have been so lonely and I won't be lonely anymore! Don't cry, Momma." So there it was. She sprinkled her sunshine on that moment, too.
It took me a while to tell Boone. Actually I didn't tell him. Cali asked. She said, "Why do you keep testing Boone's blood? Does he have Diabetes, too?" Yep. Yes. Yes he does. Boone was standing right there. He said, "It's ok. I'll have Diabetes. I just won't have the shots or the pump." It was a start. A good start, really.
So here we are. 2 out of 3 kids. Wish it was me instead. I know that there are big plans for my kids. They are being prepared for quite a life. I'm so super proud of them and humbled by their strength and faith. Gwyneth never asks WHY she has Diabetes. You'd think she'd ask why God allowed her and her brother to have Diabetes. Instead, she always says that she's thankful God helps her through her day.
We were listening to Never Let Go by Matt Redman on the way home from Childrens' Hospital Los Angeles a few weeks ago and Gwyneth and I both were overcome as we listened to the lyrics. With Type 1 we deal with literal HIGHS and LOWS of blood sugars every ten minutes. God never lets us go and He is with us through every HIGH and every LOW.
We are so thankful.
You Never Let Go by Matt Redman
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near
And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?
(Chorus:)
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me
And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth
(Chorus)
Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You
So very thankful.
Gwyneth's adorable pump belt in the photo from Amy at www.toosweetboutique.net
Awesome photos thanks to Jen from http://adaywiththedeans.blogspot.com/
